Transitions

So lots of transition going on in my life right now. In about two weeks I'll be headed to CA to work on an organic farm for 6 weeks and after that I'm moving back to my roots, the heart of it all - Dayton, OH. In the meantime I need to pack up all of my stuff here in TN and move it North so that I won't have to pay rent while I'm gone. I am also conveniently delaying said packing by writing this blog.
I am both excited and unsure about moving. It will be good to reconnect with my parents as well as friends that I have still living in my hometown, but structurally my life will be very different than I am used to here. I had my last day of work at the job I've held for the past year here in Cleveland. My coworkers were so generous to throw me a going-away party with decorations and cupcakes and snacks, it was definitely a surprise and I truly felt like I will be missed. I know I will miss my clients and coworkers. I cried on the drive home from work on Friday - BCS has been my life for the past year! Realistically, I spend more than half my awake time there - interacting with and loving the people around me.
It's so easy to question if I'm making the "right choices" or not - quitting my job, going to CA, moving back home. The more I think about it though, the more I come to the understanding that it's not about a "right" or "wrong" decision, it's about letting God work through me in the situations I find myself in. I could go to CA and have a terrible attitude and not practice my faith or I could forget about trying to decide if I'm "supposed" to be there or not and just let the love, joy, and peace that I experience overflow in the places and people I encounter.
It's strange not knowing where I'll be after the next few months are up. I may still be kicking in with 'rents, back in Cleveland or Chattanooga, or making it on my own in a new city! In the meantime - bring on the exotic fruits and rattlesnakes (yes there will be rattlesnakes where I'm going - yikes)!!